What the H?

Back when a snow day was warranted

I’m really wondering if I’m looking at the early stages of diminished capacity.  Cancer has left Scott’s memory a little foggy but what has it done to mine?  I’m the same person that held two jobs while raising two kids and held positions in multiple non-profit and community boards.  I managed to navigate the medical and insurance worlds that was my life for the past two years when Scott became sick.  Now I can’t even successfully manage a Sirius XM radio account.  I mean – what the hell?  Is it me or just the world we live in?  We might not be walking uphill two miles to school and back with bread bags in our snow boots but is what we have now any easier? 

One of the perks of maturity (thankfully for us at least) is knowing that we have enough money in our checking accounts to handle automatic obligations and cover our spending.  Gone are the days of keeping an eagle eye on that balance and robbing Peter to pay Paul and keep the bills paid and avoid overdraft fees that seemed to stress me out in my early years of marriage back in the 80’s.  Unfortunately, I had misguidedly decided about 10 years ago that I no longer needed to balance my checkbook.  Now, with so much free time on my hands, I decided that I would track our expenses in Quickbooks.      

The process of entering our 2024 transactions led me to several interesting discoveries.  The subscription to Prime Video that I thought I canceled last fall was still being deducted.  We also discovered that funds were being taken from Scott’s account twice a month from Sirius XM radio.  Long story short, after two attempts, we were STILL paying for the vehicle I sold back in November.  I know, you’re welcome!  Hopefully, the third attempt to remove it is the charm. If I had taken the time to write down the date and time that I had talked to the representative the first time, I could have asked them to review the tapes and prove that I had asked the Traverse to be cancelled back in November.  As consumers, we need to use that “your call is being recorded for training purposes” to our advantage.  Thanks to my friend in customer service for that little tidbit!

As most of you know, I sold my business back in October of 2023.  Ancient history; right?  Wish.  Last week I got a little “love letter” in the mail.  A delinquent tax notice with my name on it for property taxes on the property I no longer owned.  You know that I opened the notice on a Friday after five so I had all weekend to stew about it.  I could go into it but after several phone calls and a trip to the title office, I am washing my hands of it.   Everyone wants to prove to me that it’s not their fault and pass the buck.  More than once I was told that I shouldn’t worry about it; I can’t lose real estate for delinquent taxes when I don’t own the property. Great problem solving!

That’s not all.  After nine months, the State is still processing the transfer of the liquor license.  Now they have decided that I never paid a fee back in 2019; so, the license can’t be transferred until that is paid.  Sure, let me just open up my bottomless pocket book for that too.  Wanting to be sure that the funds make it to the right hands, I asked for payment instructions.  They respond by sending me a credit card payment form and that I can fax the form back or mail it.   I guess writing a check is old school but faxing isn’t?

Regardless of your income or ability, the average citizen is expected to have the minimum of a Smart phone and the ability to scan and email and text.  The medical world operates strictly on-line and I doubt that you can even receive financial aid if you don’t have a way to operate electronically.  At the same time the government is telling us that they only accept fax or snail mail.  Who even has a land line anymore let alone a fax machine?  Seriously.  

I mean even using the phone to handle a problem is becoming archaic.  How many times do you sit on hold waiting for the representative while listening to the recording telling you that if you want better service, you should log on and handle your problem electronically?  Assuming you have gotten that far.  So many times, you get caught in a loop of AI; screaming your option choice with your blood pressure reaching dangerous levels.  Like speaking louder will solve your problems.  How often do we find ourselves needing a drink after just trying to call and conduct business?  You have to be a genius with patience of Job just to survive these days. 

Even my hobbies lead to stress these days.  Being that I enjoy sewing; I decided to look into getting a commercial style machine so I can do some projects without having to pay an expert.  Maybe recover that ugly old couch in the basement that we can’t seem to part with.  I started shopping on Marketplace and found a good old machine in Indiana listed by a sweet old lady that was so anxious to sell that she was even going to teach me how to use it.  Luckily, I didn’t have access to a pick-up truck.  Today the same machine picture is used on a listing in Battle Creek by a different seller.  Who knows what would have happened to me if I had gone to look at it alone.  Damn scammers! 

Speaking of.  Don’t you just feel all warm and fuzzy every time you get that friend request from the superhot retired service man who has been recently widowed and is looking to be your friend because he loves the review you posted three years ago for the local burger joint?  Seriously?  Impersonating a service person is unforgiveable.  Losers!! I’m tempted to waste their time and lead them on.  Tell them that I have millions in the bank and that I’m just looking for sex.  Sounds like fun but I’m pretty sure some how they would somehow manage to gain my personal information and I would end up the loser. 

Scott & I might need to pack up and join the Mountain Men.  See if Eustace wants to sell us off a little parcel.  Live off the land; I can make our clothes and Scott can grow our food.  No computers or televisions to fill my head with garbage.  No politics.  Just fresh air and nature.  Unfortunately, that life style likely comes with bugs and mice; and no air conditioning.  That won’t work for this fluffy aging woman either. 

I’m pretty sure that it’s the hot and humid weather that is causing my sour mood.   Maybe it’s retirement jitters.  Not having your life operate at 90 miles an hour makes you feel like you are just sitting around waiting for the next problem to raise its ugly head.  Let’s do lunch has a whole new meaning when all your friends are over an hour away. And even if you have all the time in the world, it doesn’t mean that others do.  Maybe feeling this way is normal for people after they have lived through life altering events.  Normal life is just boring after the shit storm is over.

Flashback to when !*&% was simple

Since I obviously don’t have the patience to return to the work force, I guess I will have to ask Meta AI how to cope.  Reminding me; the other day Scott and I were talking about the 5 Love Languages.  Ok, yes, I was talking at him about the 5 Love Languages; refreshing his memory.  Sure enough, the next time I was on Facebook, I had something in my feed referring to them.  Scary. 

There’s plenty more of the same but I’ve exceeded my word limit for the day.  Don’t feel sorry for me.  I’ve made it to 60 without medication; I’ll get through it.  Let this be the distraction you needed from your own problems.  Know that the lives of your seemingly perfect Facebook friends aren’t perfect either.  Laugh.  Like everything before it, it will pass.  Things will work out; it’s just another chapter in What Doesn’t Kill You Girl Makes You Stronger!   

Working Weekends

I’ve been AWOL again.  As a follow-up; it took a month but my mouth is finally healed and I can eat anything again.  Sadly, even a month of liquid diet followed by soft food didn’t lead to any weight loss.  Retirement and writing aren’t exactly working like I had planned.  My creative writing streaks seem to be few and far between.  Usually, my time on Lake Superior sets the creative juices flowing but this time we were too busy for that.    

As I have written, the property in Canada is a treasured investment made by Scott’s grandfather nearly 100 years ago.  While the heirs, ourselves included, have all concentrated our lives around caring for our families and maintaining our own personal properties, the cabins have been aging; patiently awaiting the day we would have time to show them some love.  Some years, such as the COVID years when Americans were not allowed to enter Canada, the critters have been the only ones to vacation there; leaving their mark like a bunch of unruly children.  As Scott and I entered full retirement, we were looking forward to spending an extended amount of time there getting the place cleaned up and tackling some of the long-needed projects.    After all, when you only had a week there for vacation, who wanted to spend it working or cleaning?

As excited as we were to get this party started, it wasn’t without sadness.  It was only last fall, that Scott and I had the opportunity to spend time with his cousin Jeff A and his wife.  The property allows you to live more like neighbors; enjoying morning coffee or meals as you wish but still having your own private space.  Successful career people; they too had just retired.  Jeff actually having the same blood disorder that had led to Scott’s stem cell transplant; essential thrombosis.  Luckily his was still successfully controlled by medication.  We had a great time with them and had plans for doing much more of it in the coming years.  Unfortunately, life took a turn in April and Jeff was killed in a skid loader accident at his home.  Leaving a huge hole in not only the heart of his high school sweetheart bride but his friends and family as well.  Taking out the chief operating officer of the family cabin.  Rest assured; Scott and I are committed to seeing his work continued.  Not a day went by that we didn’t silently look for his guidance or ask ourselves, what would Jeff have done? Gone but not forgotten for sure.      

A glimpse at the old kitchen

Going into this year, priority one was the kitchen in the original cabin.  After obtaining a practically new kitchen for the other cabin a couple years ago for free, expectations were high.  That new kitchen clearly outshined the old cabin’s kitchen, leading people to decide that a facelift was due for the old cabin kitchen.  Change is never easy and gaining “authorization” to tear out the old kitchen didn’t come without its challenges.  Looking like something that Aunt Jemima, herself would have cooked in, the kitchen held many memories of baking bread on the old wood stove, baking pies and frying up bacon and Batchawana fries in one of the ten cast iron frying pans proudly displayed on the cabin walls.  But it was time. 

Scott, frequently surprising me with what I consider his off the wall ideas, phoned the local home improvement store with a question.  When you tear out old kitchens, what do you do with the old ones?  The gentleman responded that they typically just end up in the dumpster.  So, Scott, asked – what would it take to get one of them for our family cabin?  “Paul” indicated that actually they were tearing out a fairly nice kitchen in a couple weeks and if we wanted to, we could come look at it.  If we liked it, we could have it.  For free.  Again?  Well; I was sure that was too good to be true.  I had a wait and see attitude. 

Sure enough, on the exact date, Scott’s phone rang and next thing I knew we were hooking up the enclosed trailer; on our way to look at this kitchen.  Peering into the fully loaded box truck, it seemed that this kitchen was slightly worn but certainly still had a few good years left on it.  We unloaded the entire truck complete with sink and countertops.  Lesson learned; it never hurts to ask!

May 19th, we headed North, loaded for bear, you might say.  I would say that Scott had everything but the kitchen sink in our truck and trailer but we literally did have the kitchen sink with us.  Armed with tools and supplies we were both excited to tackle this much-awaited kitchen project, among many others.  Arrangements were made with our amazing neighbors to keep the lawn mown and the birds fed, heading out for our first extended period North.  Friends and family members were scheduled to join us over the allotted time span. 

When we weren’t working, we were “entertaining”.  Fishing with our guests, playing cards and eating.  The fishing wasn’t that great but since we basically only do catch and release, I’m not sure it matters.  It’s all about taking in the scenery and spending time with people we either know and love or in some cases don’t know as well as maybe we should and getting to know them better.  We relaxed and laughed over cocktails; bonfires on the river bank after a hard day’s work.  Good thing food service is my passion. Scott was good for a few breakfasts and cousin Jeff O provided a mean chili but for the most part I was in charge of meals.   Oh, and brother Dan’s pea meal bacon breakfast was yummy too. 

For three weeks, we were in heaven.  The views were perfect and the weather was perfect; other than the pesky mosquitos and black flies, it couldn’t have been much better.  Not only were we loving our location, we had purpose.  As two people working through early retirement, we found great pleasure in having something to do.  Sure, retirement sounds great and is envied by most, in reality, it can leave you feeling a little unproductive most times.  Lacking purpose.  We worked like dogs and it was invigorating.  I don’t think I took Melatonin once while we were there.  No better sleep aid than just working and being tired at the end of the day. 

It took a couple days for us to figure out that if I was working alongside the guys on projects, that we couldn’t just stop working and expect a hot delicious meal to be waiting for us when we arrived “home” at the other cabin.  Eventually I figured out how to do both.  In hindsight, I found great joy in providing sustenance for our guests, but I would have appreciated a little more help with the dishes.  For the most part, once Bonnie left, I was pretty much on my own.  We might need to add a dishwasher to the wish list.  It’s hard to complain about washing dishes while gazing out at Lake Superior but one might argue that being out there would be even better.       

Chinking; doesn’t it look like fun?

While it might be true that you can’t teach an old dog a new trick, you can learn new things after sixty if you are open to it.  After Cousin Bill appeared a little bored with his job of chinking the cabin walls, I decided that learning a new skill might be more pleasurable than spending the rest of the day pulling nails out of the hardwood floor.  Like Tom Sawyer and fence painting; he graciously agreed to let me apprentice him.  For the unknowing, mortar chinking is the “art” of applying a layer of mortar between the rounded logs with the purpose of keeping the elements and critters out.  It takes effort to not make a mess on the logs and get it looking nice.  Crazy as it seems, I found it rather enjoyable and I think I have a future in the trade as it seems as a never-ending process in the life of a log cabin.  After mixing 240# of concrete mix and applying, we have only just begun.      

Returning home, I think we were both a little saddened to have our productivity come to an end.  Somehow sewing and practicing Spanish isn’t quite as rewarding as physical work.  It’s good for the heart and soul and a lot healthier than sitting on the couch writing.  Luckily, I have time for both.  I just have to commit to making it happen.

A view of the final product; not bad for a bunch of novices